When I close my eyes, she becomes real.
Jared, a profoundly disturbed individual still coming to terms with the death of his beloved Sarah, assumes the persona of a Hikikomori, a willing recluse who has taken solace within the confines of his apartment. His insanity presents herself in the form of a female necessity.
I lean forward.
I almost choke, as my face in the mirror is replaced by something else.
Jared is faced with conflicting emotions, the intense love he feels for Sarah, the desperate guilt over her death and the fear of insanity gnawing away.
I whisper, ‘Now that your body is a million miles from mine, and your heart several worlds removed, I can say it; I loved you.’
His choice of comfort is a sexy little lady who assumes many different styles, everything, except black hair. Sarah had black hair. This imaginary lady helps Jared forget about everything, forget about his past, his life with Sarah and keeps him fixated but something inside won’t let it drop. This Hikikomori is faced with spirits that will not fade until he confronts his demons.
‘I’m sorry. I still love you.’ I whisper into her ear.
Melissa, a tormented, recovering Insomniac with Dissociative Identity Disorder lives in a fancy apartment, alone. A self-confessed recluse, Melissa conjures up illusory friends who are the complete opposite of her and finds time to picture such bizarre scenes with intricate detail.
His body crunches the roof of a car. He spits out a gallon of blood that splatters down over his broken body, the wreck beneath him and traumatised passers-by.
Having moved into this new apartment, Melissa, feels the presence of a man, a beautiful man whom she is drawn to and who seems to possess sufferings of his own. The two initiate a deep, perverse journey filled with a painful yearning to accept their pasts.
‘I’m sorry, I still love you.’ He whispers into my ear.
The level of detail is staggeringly overwhelming to say the least. It is clear the author emanates passion and artistry that is evident throughout his writing.
Lawrence Pearce has the ability to rouse feelings of despair you didn’t know existed within you. A sinister novel that will take the reader into an unfamiliar zone and have you question your own mentality.
Questions for the reader:
Reader: What are your thoughts on the structure of Hikikomori and how do you think the different narratives add to the overall conclusion of the story?
Reader: How did the central theme of Hikikomori resonate with you?
Reader: How true did the characters feel to you?
Reader: How did you feel about the intertwined relationships
Reader: How else do you feel Hikikomori could have ended?
Questions for the author:
@Lawrence Pearce: Have you always wanted to be a writer?
@Lawrence Pearce: Where did your inspiration for Hikikomori come from?
@Lawrence Pearce: In Jared, the narrative was natural, realistic and about an individual faced with demons of the past, yet in Melissa, her imagination is far more irrational, for example, the description of the angel dying. Was this an intentional tactic?
@Lawrence Pearce: Where do you characters come from and how do they evolve?
@Lawrence Pearce: How much research did you do on social withdrawal?
@Lawrence Pearce: Hikikomori deals with some disturbing and poignant issues. How did you handle these subjects?
@Lawrence Pearce: Are you a tea lover?
@Lawrence Pearce: What are you writing next?
Thank you for reading my review.